Yes, to all of this Timna. I, too, wish you never had to write this list. The first anniversary is so hard. They're all hard, of course, but that first one is particularly brutal as the numbness wears off and you find yourself feeling the loss with renewed clarity.

I'll light a candle for Orli today, alongside the one I always light for Ana while I write (I know I'm a day late, but the light will shine just as brightly). We're coming up on the 6th anniversary of Ana's death next month. Hard to believe so much time has gone by without her. Sending love and light to you.