Oh no - I'm so sorry you read this one at work. I also struggle with the question, "Where is Ana?" which is a big reason I wrote this. It's so hard when you're not religious (I'm not), though I've begun trusting that there is some part of us that continues on after we die, I don't know what that is. I'm sorry for the loss of your Preston. Sending so much love to you as you navigate this hard path.