Ana's story isn't every child's story - not even close. I'm so happy to hear your son has been in remission for 19 months and I also very much understand the terror. I'm going to gently suggest you don't read my posts about grief. They're only going to make the terror worse. Treatments have improved even since Ana got sick 10 years ago and many more kids are not only surviving cancer, but surviving and thriving in adulthood. Sending love to you.